Saturday, December 30, 2023




That I got to experience ONE GREAT FEELING BEYOND BELIEF in my life, thanks to my first crush, Kirk Pemperton.  

It was closing night of MAN OF LA MANCHA at Ohio State University and a rap party ws being held at the director's campus home. At the end of the evening, Kirk slowly came on to me. (My fiance, Debby, had left earlier due to working early the next day.)   I was nervous as hell when he approached me in his suave sexy way.  

I felt I was swirling above the ground and was being swept off to the heavens, with my beautiful armored knight on his white horse.  Pure. Bliss.

My infatuation with Kirk lasted for about 2 years but never culminated into being in love.  It wasn't love. 

I thank him for this opportunity of happiness, education, and elation!

This post was inspired by a scene
from the new brilliant Australian film:


Friday, December 29, 2023



Since my life has taken a 360 degree nosedive for nearly 2 years now (1st February), some days are just not fun.  When I have those days, which is pretty often, I will get lost in happy memories and just transport myself back to those times.  Sometimes music can help slide myself more into the escape.  Thanks to acting skills I leanred years ago (the method), I can bring all my senses and feel like I am actually there on the dancefloor at Studio One or Studio 54.

It's all in the mind, the head, the thoughts.  And I have control over that, thanks to years of education and psychotherapy.  

Hopefully my life will pick back up and I'll be breezing onward,,,,



I find as a I age, people get weirder and weirder -- and/or -- my na├»ve eyes open more and I see reality, which many times is NOT PRETTY.

I'm so disappointed and hurt by some people that used to be in my life. Wow.  

Hence, I am now President of (I Love Lucy's) "Friends of The Friendless"  -- I have no one in my life.   Trying to make new acquaintances and friends seems to be much harder for me now as I get older.  I've never had this problem EVER in my life before.  People were always around.

Maybe it's just my fucked-up-ness,

though......I don't think so.

Thursday, December 28, 2023



Being Depressed......

Sunday, November 5, 2023




British Writer Pens The Best Description 

Of Trump I’ve Read

Laurence, Olivier

“Why do some British people not like Donald Trump?” Nate White, an articulate and witty writer from England wrote the following response:

A few things spring to mind. Trump lacks certain qualities which the British traditionally esteem. For instance, he has no class, no charm, no coolness, no credibility, no compassion, no wit, no warmth, no wisdom, no subtlety, no sensitivity, no self-awareness, no humility, no honour and no grace – all qualities, funnily enough, with which his predecessor Mr. Obama was generously blessed. So for us, the stark contrast does rather throw Trump’s limitations into embarrassingly sharp relief.

Plus, we like a laugh. And while Trump may be laughable, he has never once said anything wry, witty or even faintly amusing – not once, ever. I don’t say that rhetorically, I mean it quite literally: not once, not ever. And that fact is particularly disturbing to the British sensibility – for us, to lack humour is almost inhuman. But with Trump, it’s a fact. He doesn’t even seem to understand what a joke is – his idea of a joke is a crass comment, an illiterate insult, a casual act of cruelty.

Trump is a troll. And like all trolls, he is never funny and he never laughs; he only crows or jeers. And scarily, he doesn’t just talk in crude, witless insults – he actually thinks in them. His mind is a simple bot-like algorithm of petty prejudices and knee-jerk nastiness.

There is never any under-layer of irony, complexity, nuance or depth. It’s all surface. Some Americans might see this as refreshingly upfront. Well, we don’t. We see it as having no inner world, no soul. And in Britain we traditionally side with David, not Goliath. All our heroes are plucky underdogs: Robin Hood, Dick Whittington, Oliver Twist. Trump is neither plucky, nor an underdog. He is the exact opposite of that. He’s not even a spoiled rich-boy, or a greedy fat-cat. He’s more a fat white slug. A Jabba the Hutt of privilege.

And worse, he is that most unforgivable of all things to the British: a bully. That is, except when he is among bullies; then he suddenly transforms into a snivelling sidekick instead. There are unspoken rules to this stuff – the Queensberry rules of basic decency – and he breaks them all. He punches downwards – which a gentleman should, would, could never do – and every blow he aims is below the belt. He particularly likes to kick the vulnerable or voiceless – and he kicks them when they are down.

So the fact that a significant minority – perhaps a third – of Americans look at what he does, listen to what he says, and then think ‘Yeah, he seems like my kind of guy’ is a matter of some confusion and no little distress to British people, given that:
• Americans are supposed to be nicer than us, and mostly are.
• You don’t need a particularly keen eye for detail to spot a few flaws in the man.

This last point is what especially confuses and dismays British people, and many other people too; his faults seem pretty bloody hard to miss. After all, it’s impossible to read a single tweet, or hear him speak a sentence or two, without staring deep into the abyss. He turns being artless into an art form; he is a Picasso of pettiness; a Shakespeare of shit. His faults are fractal: even his flaws have flaws, and so on ad infinitum. God knows there have always been stupid people in the world, and plenty of nasty people too. But rarely has stupidity been so nasty, or nastiness so stupid. He makes Nixon look trustworthy and George W look smart. In fact, if Frankenstein decided to make a monster assembled entirely from human flaws – he would make a Trump.

And a remorseful Doctor Frankenstein would clutch out big clumpfuls of hair and scream in anguish: ‘My God… what… have… I… created?' If being a twat was a TV show, Trump would be the boxed set.


Monday, October 30, 2023


 (Instead of of the ridiculous MAGA) 

let's do

--  CASA  --


1)  No protests of hatred, not allowed to wear shirts of hatred, no groups allowed to form who hate others.  Hatred and Bullying need to be DELETED from the USA.  For example, Germany will not tolerate any Nazi groups in Germany.

2)  Get rid of all the guns.

3)  Allow women to abort a baby if they choose so.

4)  Free education to everyone.

5)  Free medical care for everyone.


Friday, October 20, 2023

Saturday, September 23, 2023


 Human Activist and Philanthropist

Sean Penn recently stated:

"....I love humanity, but I hate humans!"

I can certainly relate.  The older I get, unfortunately, 

I see reality better --  and it's not pretty!

Tuesday, September 19, 2023


 Why are there SO MANY 

idiots in this world???

It's disgusting, stressful, and frustrating.

Sunday, September 17, 2023


As I've grown older, I've learned that pleasing everyone is impossible, but pissing everyone off is a piece of cake! 

There is no such thing as a grouchy old person. The truth is that once you get old, you stop being polite and start being honest.

As I watch this generation try and rewrite our history, I'm sure of one thing: it will be misspelled and have no punctuation.

My tolerance for idiots is extremely low these days. I used to have some immunity built up, but obviously, there's a new strain out there.

Common sense is like deodorant. The people who need it the most never use it.

Saturday, August 19, 2023


 My next "Struggling, Surviving" episode:


Thursday, August 3, 2023


 May this out of a bottle blonde yellow faced 

bimbo go down in history for trying 

to destroy our nation's democracy . . . . 

 . . . .and Constitution. 

(you arrogant son of a bitch)

 +++++  May he be snuffed out  +++++

This low-life fascist is a pathological 
ego driven moron, 
right up there 
with Stalin, Mussolini, and Hitler!

After all this Mister Trump,
you are merely a highly flawed human.

Sunday, July 30, 2023


 Fuck these conservative Old Farts on the Supreme Court,

who has these long long outdated dinosaur ideas.

Die already!   

Where's RBG when ya need her!

Thursday, July 27, 2023


 Cure for Civilization:

Stay indoors, with head under the covers!

Monday, July 10, 2023


This is my fourth (4th) vid in the series of:



Friday, June 30, 2023

 Candace Owens is a Fascist

These people who don't want human rights . . . .

What is wrong with them?!

It baffles my head.


Friday, May 5, 2023

Wednesday, April 26, 2023


A MAJOR fart goes out to Supreme Court Justices:  

Thomas, Cavanaugh, Coney, and Gorsuch


Tuesday, April 11, 2023


 Ted Cruz, and all these fascists, are .......